Begining of the Story "Entropy & Winter" [012402]
// January 24th, 2002 // No Comments » // life the universe and everything
[authors note [030206]: I realize now that this was entered a day or two before my marathon writing session which produced “Entropy & Winter” which is currently one of my favorite pieces of my work. The “sex” scene about 12 pages from the end in which the main character returns Maynard to his genisis state of unmaking just gives me the tingles every time. I loved writing that story. I loved reading it for the first time. I love re-reading it. Must be one of my good ones!]
1/24/2002 1:36:12 PM
There is more inside me. I met with Pete Oldham today and we discussed the “Separation Agreement” with Brouse. He’s going to make some phone calls and see if we can get the terms extended. He say’s it’s a gamble, but it is one that I’m going to have to take. The agreement letter was something I’d sign away all my rights to anything forever. I’m not willing to do that for such a piddly amount. Maybe there is a method of soft gentle persuasion that could appeal to humanity. Such soft grace is not something I’m granted. My “subtle inference” usually involves a hammer and a blowtorch. I stood fearfully on the precipice of “what should I do.” And said the Serenity Prayer. “Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” There was no serenity in accepting what was offered. So I hope that having the courage to change it will benefit me. My next entry may indicate that I have more need to have the “wisdom to know the difference.”
1/24/2002 1:41:48 PM
Outline for the story.
Three layers
Primordial – essence.
Life events
Dreams – Ethereal reflections
Characters
· Verbena Fire Assassin. Isolated. Slightly a skewed. Never quite fitting in. Attractive, yet scruffy. Slightly inapproachable. Never fully trusts anything, including herself.
· Mentor – Hardly ever there. Knowledable but worn thin. Able to plug into the oracles, but to scattered to receive full or timely messages from them. Lacks the punctual memory to state important things
· Set – Lover/Brother. Familiar. Sad and melancholy. The fire has burned past its apex point and now is returning to cinders. Smoldering, but impotent to flares and surges in the heat it once held. Verbena returns to Set often, for reflection and camaraderie. They both know passion and the distance it sets them apart from the rest of the world. They are both lonely creatures that have accepted the dharma of their existence.
· Mother Lilith. Creation of of Nothingness. Ability to teach survival skills. No warmth. No compassion. She’s had no time for such things. She loves her daughter, but knows that harsh reality is the best fortifier.
· Morpheous. Dream. Opiate.
· Maynard. Mage orator. Red. Elitism. Enjoys but will never accept Verbena as an equal. He is a privileged bon vivant. She a scrubwoman in the elite majick circles. Yes, she has power. That raw, electric power of unbridled majick and rage. She burns and is sexual and that entertains Maynard. But he knows…he is refined. He enjoys her singe, but will outlast her roughness.
Story:
This story tells the experience of Verbena, the main character, who has an inherent talent for majick. She burns with fire and passion which is misplaced and exploited. She finds some mentors, who are too far into the aethyr to be really helpful (think heroin addict with a touch of genius) and to past their prime to really hone her edge. She loses herself with Qlippothic Majick and must walk the “shell path.” To ascension. She had Set, who walks a similar path who is like her brother, and Lilith who is her harsh mother who teaches her survival, but not kindness. She is pursued by Maynard who has the talent, looks and gift to be a compatible mage, but who believes he is blessed by birthright as a superior being to her earth-like raw sexuality and power. (Think Hierophant)
Along the way there is the aligning of forces set to destroy Verbena and majick, as well as the mundane world she lives in, but doesn’t participate . She must learn how to protect herself, her powers and her loves to burn brightly.
